Inflamed Paradox

i'm still here

2005-05-11T20:29:22Z

where in the fuck has everyone been?hmm,my live journal account is still working.thats a total suprise to me.i thought this thing would have been dead by now.ha ha.i've just been updating in my deadjournal more than here.so count yourselves lucky that i'm still even updating in lj today.see ya freaks.

ladysilmeria @ 2005-03-09T21:19:00

2005-03-10T04:23:13Z

hey,well sprng break is coming up.woohoo.but until then, exams await.i am certainly going to fail,thats a given.and the funny thing is,that this yr is supposed to be my graduating yr.pffft graduate?ahahaha.thats a good one.in the meantime,here's more of yours truly.

um yeah,what was i thinking about again?thats right college.

neglecting lj.

2005-01-12T20:13:40Z

just realized i've been neglecting my lj.not sure what all to write about,drawing a blank.just can't wait til the week is over.anyway here's new pics of yours truly.i'm such a freak with the camera.

{demon worship}

{can't get enough?}

see you next time lj freaks. :)

yay weekend!

2004-12-16T23:02:41Z

well today was just another gay day of school,just waiting to piss me off as usual.but its friday so that means its time to drink.i love those times.but i still have to go through an entire day.which is quit frustrating considering i have to graduate and think of my "so called future"meh,i have been waiting all week for friday and here it is.woopee~!!but the next thing i know i am gonna be back in class on monday to finish whatever is left.

missing dimebag

2004-12-10T21:05:11Z

rest in peace you cowboy from hell.you'll be sadly missed.

i'll take a few shots for you.many cheers to you dimebag.

weekend stuffage

2004-12-01T20:44:57Z

i had a random weekend.went to a small party with my friend sonja,got really drunk.then just played around with the digicam.what fun huh?

{me and sonja's butt at the party}

{shaking me booty}

{don't piss me off}

{now what to do about that corpse in the corner}

ok thats all for now you crazy fucks.

holy update batman

2004-12-01T19:35:56Z

holy shit i havent wrote for a long time.i have been actually busy with school work,new bf,blah,essay after essay, it never ends oh well i'll be posting some pics soon.love ya.

ladysilmeria @ 2004-11-18T13:33:00

2004-11-18T20:35:03Z

yes yes,i know I haven't posted here in like weeks.i've been going thru alot lately and work has had me by the tail.but enough about me.how is everyone else?i will be catching up with entries asap.hugs to you all.

random thoughts

2004-10-29T20:15:39Z

the extent of my days just gets better and better.i'm just here randomly thinking about life.i think there was an alien at my window.

nothing to do

2004-10-26T20:16:27Z

today must be the most boring day,and this journal needed to be updated anyway.it looks like it's going to snow. its tuesday,i'm broke.grr.typical.i'll just have to sit here all day.smoking cigs.all alone.no alcohol.no one to cuddle with.i want to go back to germany or maybe back to canada.grr,i hate times like this.kill me now.

leaving

2004-10-15T19:33:36Z

another weekend rolls here again.and this sunday,i'm leaving with heather and the rest of her band to germany.i'm so excited.i have never been to germany before.the really cool thing about going to germany too,is that enthroned is doing a show out there during the week of our stay.fucking sick.i haven't been to a black metal show in ages.germany gets the best bands.i hate the shows in albuquerque,they all suck,every last bit of them.{except for really good death metal bands}well on another note.i'll take pictures of germany,and the enthroned show,and post them all when i get back in town.r.i.p. mother fuckers.

its aboot me.

2004-10-14T21:12:31Z

i got into an interesting conversation yesterday about canada.as you all probably don't know,i was born and raised in a small town called arviat in canada.{and yes i do have that silly ~ou~ accent}i happen to be proud of my french background.plus we make some killer chips.{mmm,ketchup flavor}the conversation ended up being about the south park movie and the olympics.the blame canada song never bothered me.i blame them myself,sometimes.we got alanis morrisette and our whiney little figure skating team.but we do have the skydome..yippy..way to go ~A~.ha ha.anyway i just wanted to say,i'm proud to be a canadian.i wouldn't mind going back home either.i miss it very much.

stupid me.

2004-10-13T19:42:20Z

omg,i know i may sound like a stupid fuck,but i am failing college badly,this is ridiculous,i must be totally stupid.i mean the shit is easy,i am just a lazy shit face.i if dont start working my ass off,i am gonna end up flipping burgers.argh fuck.

omg,i was blonde.

2004-10-12T19:09:58Z

yes, i was once blonde and i found a pic of me with my red eyebrow ring and no lip ring.hrrm damn i was hideous.i refuse to post the pic for others relief.ummmsies,well that was my first eyebrow out of the 3 that fucken ripped out.what a damn waste.i paid for the first 2,a total of 100 bucks down the drain,and the last my friends did it and nearly poked my eye out.

arg

2004-10-11T20:21:42Z

i'm supposed to be in class right now but i am apperently "not feeling well"so i am just sitting on my lazy ass reading entries.exc.well how fun {sarcastically speaking}i guess its better than being in class.i am sooo fucking screwed for the exams! literally screwed.i know jack shit to begin with.my brain can't handle a certain amount of information and well,its past that extent..grrr, i wish i could send someone to go do the exams while i sit and eat!muhahahaha.

wake the fuck up

2004-10-06T21:58:29Z

well let me tell ya,never ever take 3 vivrin and drink 20 cups of coffee on a school night.omfg,awful experience.i had been offered some vivrin on a school night,but i was a little too burnt to realize that i had school the next day.so i took what i was offered,then i started feeling awake and livin.the next thing i know i am at home trying to sleep,well that didnt work so well,i was lying in bed for hrs and hrs,fucking waste of time,so i whent online.by the fucking time i got to actual sleep was at 6:45 am!guess what time i had to wake up at?7 am.yep thats right,only 15 min of sleep.and let me tell you,at unm, i was a zombie,and last night i slept like sleeping beauty.

taking advantage of youth

2004-09-29T21:02:22Z

i swear life is short,you are born,you work 24/7 and then.well,you die.thats why i am taking advantage of my youth.and you live journal freaks should also.today is wednesday and me and couple of my friends are going to drink either black label 10 percent {the cheapest} or guiness which is my favorite beer.but it costs more.blah.then were gonna watch sky captain and the world of tommorow{again} for like the 5th time,god damn i love that movie,its an awesome adventure.and drink some more.see how much i am taking advantage of my young age.do it.its fun while it lasts.now fuck off.

ha ha,i'm cute now.

2004-09-28T20:05:46Z

ahahaha yeah i love it when people i havent seen in many years.tell me i'm cute.hahah joy.yes well im all alone tonight.{again}hmmmm.i shall call marc to bring me some alcohol and loving.that would make my night even better.weeee.

last call.

2004-09-27T20:18:16Z

well,i have noticed something so incredible,ok well one of my close friends made me realise what great things marc has done for me.he took care of me when i had a simple cold.which is a very small thing.the only problem i have right now is that i am getting attatched to him.{again}i am so used to being with him everyday and calling him everyday,.i'm a poor sap when it comes to love.whats wrong with me?i shouldn't be like this considering that he just got out of a 2 year relationship.and is not ready for another.i know i am.its hard to get with someone who doesn't want anyone.i won't worry about it.all i know is that he makes me very happy.

{i'm thinking away}

love is strong even when you walk alone

2004-09-25T19:49:37Z

what an emotional morning.marc and i went to heathers to get some of his stuff.it was about time,those two really needed to talk to eachother.it was kind of painful cause both of them started to cry.the feeling i got from those 2 was very strong on me.those two broke up on monday.recently my best friend has been going thru emotional trauma.she's finally and slowly coming out of her shell and getting the help she needs.its going to take her some time to move on from this very emotional break up and personal demons.she wants the help i've been offering her.regardless of how bad situations turned out,something always tends to keep our sisterhood alive.and things always get better.i wish her the best.i'll be there for her every step of the way.

whatever.

2004-09-24T20:55:53Z

i love my couisins.it sucks that they can't get drunk with me.my aunts and my mother would kill me.they still go to high school.

{emily,crystal,and a really drowsy me, still getting over my cold}

i'm such in a good mood today.

2004-09-24T20:14:16Z

my couisins flew into to town this morning.came all the way from wisconsin for the balloon fiesta this year.we never miss it.and every year some balloons fly over my house.what a great way to be woken up.with a loud ass burner and the dogs barking.the balloon fiesta is the best thing we have in this crappy city.what fun it's going to be this year.i'm feeling a little better from my cold.eh.we all get them.i tend to bitch more than others.makes me wonder if i gave my cold to a certain someone.if you get sick,i'm sorry sweety.i can always make it up to you. :)

colds suck

2004-09-22T20:13:22Z

damn,i came down a with a cold today.i feel like shit.my eyes are watering,my nose is filled with snot,and i have a sinus headache from hell.i'm soooo getting some sleep after this update.i also want some whiskey.

ladysilmeria @ 2004-09-20T14:21:00

2004-09-20T20:30:41Z

why is it that friends do things that we just don't understand.you can care about them plenty of times,then they just do something that makes no sense at all.or at least it makes sense to them.people you have known for years,and just don't understand why.why such actions towards everybody you care about.i just hope that whatever my friend is going thru,that she gets the help she needs.its affecting us all.i hope i can help her,but i can't help someone who doesn't want to be helped.i just don't know what to do.

jews.sholome.

2004-09-16T21:34:52Z

somebody asked me if i was a racist person last night at work.maybe i am.we happen to have this jewish girl who happens to have a big mouth,bragging about how jews are the chosen ones all the time.i just kept laughing and called her a kike.indeed she is.so all together.i think jews are the chosen people.cha,chosen to be thrown in an oven.